I wish things were like the beginning… where we would do anything and “wing it”… but things seem different.. less time together; less time talking. I mean the last time we talked on the phone late at night was December… Has she started losing those feelings? Has she given up? I really hope not… I know i have been a screw up in my life… but i am really trying to make you happy.. being that same guy you met in the beginning… But i can’t change… Now, i have this feeling that you don’t wanna do anything about this? For some reason, i feel like we just only mind physically being with each other: no talking, no adventures… Just sitting in a room watching tv all day when there’s a day to spend to go somewhere and see others or do something other than watching tv.
But this is me expressing what’s on my mind… i’m frightened to express this to her because i don’t want this to be a big deal… This is a temporary feeling.. it’ll get better… for better, or for worse.
Wtf am i suppose to do when people can’t face reality… That’s how i survive the hardships of life.. face reality, understand it, and do the things to avoid it. Things like these require sacrifice and pain. If you can’t realize that then you’re getting no where in life. You won’t be happy with ranting and letting things out. With that… What am i suppose to tell the person i love when life is hard for her!?? Tell her,”sorry… it’ll get better?” i already gave her disappointments… why tell her the something over and over again.
When people change… others change as well… as she changes… i change… I seriously don’t know what to do… i feel like our relationship…. will hit a dead-end…
"If you truly love someone…. you’d let her go, to live a stress-free life."
i really hope that will never-ever come to that… i’m too madly in love to lose a girl like her..
Today was a boring day… College is stressful, homework is a nightmare. Today really just sucked… Most of my day my lovely girlfriend was gone doing her high school stuff.. so i was lonely all day. Every time she is gone… i don’t know.. I feel like i lost her! :( I don’t care if i over exaggerate , i just miss her is all. <3